One for my cyber-stalkers.

A few drops of rain gently touched my skin and I mindfully returned to a day when I had no worries and no decisions to make. It seems that as of lately much has been weighing on my mind and my heart. As the rain drops became more steady, I sat there, oblivious to the universe around me. Barely responsive and lost in thought of my special someone. I wonder how my life would be ten years from now. I question my happiness that I currently enjoy. I know that the cause of my happiness is something that I continue to do with my day-to-day lifestyle. I frequently fall back on my happiness and think about my past. Had I given in to the temptation of not wanting to be alone for the rest of my days, would I be happy? Probably not. However, within the last year, I have learned much about myself that I have denied. I had denied myself the ability to reside in a happy mental state. I thought of every negative occurrence in my life and I used that as an excuse to preserve a half-lit smile. Then a day came when I saw the blue skies around my small and dark world. I felt the spring breeze brush across my neck and for the first time in a long time I was at ease. All of the anger and sadness I had built up over the years was simply washed away with a quick summer storm. At this point I was on a general high and I thus far I have found the strength to remain there.