Keeping the faith; racing with destiny: Part 1

I know, I know. I haven’t written something meaningful in quite some time. I guess, in a way, I have been at a loss for words. My mind has been trying to wrap itself around understanding the many emotions that have been rushing through my body. After saying these emotions out loud and discussing them with someone, I feel as if my mind has been put at ease. Backtracking in my mind the few relationships that I have been in and the underlying emotions that started with them and the lack thereof that ended them, I have come to realize that I have loved another but evidently I wasn’t in-love. Falling in-love with another person is a once in a lifetime experience that can seem lonely at times. As lonely as it may seem, there is a lot of the “little things” that keep me on my toes and wanting more. For instance, when the phone rings and it’s Jaime, I instantly smile and feel as if nothing else matters. My heart pounds at the very thought of him and his voice is like a beautiful melody that only I can hear. I lay awake in bed at night and when I close my eyes I can feel him here, with his arms around me and I fall asleep smiling because I now know what people always meant by the phrase “it’s the little things that count…” It’s the scent he left behind that lingers in my mind. It’s his warm, gentle touch that leaves me wanting more. It’s the quick glance into his eyes and seeing much more than what meets the eye. It’s the pain and daily fight of wanting so much more but remaining patient. Time plays a major role for me right now. As hard as it be to race along side the hands of time, I know in my heart that Jaime is worth every second that passes.

To be continued...